I want to share with you some things that have been stirring in my mind over the last few weeks. Ever since we returned from our holidays in Ontario I have struggled to find a groove in my healthy routine. I have had trouble getting out of bed in the morning, didn’t feel like going to work, unmotivated to cook and even lacking inspiration to create recipes and come to this safe space and try to inspire others. I still managed to do it, but I’ve got to say, I nearly stopped writing for you all. Depressed would be the best way to describe it.
It is always my intention to be honest with all of you. To inspire you to try something new. To consider one small change in your kitchen and lifestyle that will help you live longer, prevent disease and that taste delicious. Like Sarah Britton says “Just make one change each day and in one year you will have made 365 changes. That is life change”. I never want to sound pretentious – especially since I am still learning so much about this world of health. I always want to choose the honest route when I am here sharing with you.
Everyday I try to make changes in my kitchen and my lifestyle. Be better. Prevent illness and build strong immune systems. I don’t know if it was the traveling, taking care of my little munchkin as he battled with a cold through the holiday season or what – but my motivation was all of a sudden gone. I stopped going to my regular yoga class, I had no interest in running in the rain to work and did not care about what we had for dinner. I ate bread. My low point this past month came when I forced my husband to stop at the local Chinese food restaurant to pick up dinner for the family. Many of you who know me personally know that we pretty much stopped going out for food or ordering take out about 4 years ago. We save it for special occasions and only go to the best places (like Rangoli for my birthday). I thought the Chinese take out would save time and still fill me with satisfaction – I was wrong. Tasted like crap. The thing that annoys me is that I knew I would feel that way after eating it. Guilt. I felt guilty for going so far off my path.
I have a very healthy relationship with my body and with food. I always have. I know that this is the only body that I get in this lifetime and I will do everything to treat it well. So this guilt thing was new to me.
But wait! What was going to happen? Were the food police going to come and get me and charge me with a ‘fast food takeout’ ticket?!?! No. Cause there’s no such thing as the food police. I think. She says as she quickly looks behind both shoulders. Nah, there really isn’t.
I quickly made an appointment with my family doctor. Not because I had Chinese takeout. But because I was feeling so down. It was time for a physical anyway. Since depression runs in my family I wanted to nip this in the butt. My new family doc is great! She actually believes in a more natural approach before any pharmaceuticals. She thinks it is probably seasonal. Full blood work was ordered and I have a follow-up with her this weekend to go over the results. Honestly, just going to her and talking about it made me feel A LOT better. I’m glad she wants to work with me and be proactive in this approach instead of shooing me out the door with a script. Never thought I would say this but I think as a mom and wife, I got so wrapped up in taking care of everyone else – making sure my husband doesn’t relapse, building Little Q’s immune system – that I lost sight of myself for a bit there. Cliché. I know. But if you’re a mom, you will get it.
I started back at yoga, I went for hikes with my family and I’ve increased my water intake. I am feeling better. Sometimes you need to refocus and work with a professional when you have problems. I know this to will pass and I will be up to my old tricks in the kitchen and in life! For now, let us all eat some healthy chocolate pudding – shall we?
- 3 -4 ripe avocados
- 1 cup raw cacao powder
- ½ cup water (more or less depending on avocado size)
- ½ cup coconut sugar
- 2 tsp maca powder (optional)
- pinch of sea salt
- chia seeds, hemp hearts, almond, walnuts & seasonal fruit
- Pit and take all the "meat" out of the avocados and place in food processor or blender.
- Add cacao powder, water, coconut sugar, maca powder (optional) and sea salt.
- Blend until becomes a pudding texture.
- Top ¼ cup with chia seeds, hemp hearts, you nut of choice and seasonal fruit.
- Serves 4-6. Enjoy!